I’ve got some more art to finish for the commission project I’ve been working on for a few months, but my muse is being stubborn.
Can’t draw. Can’t write. I can sew my husband’s cosplay and color in one of those adult coloring books, and that’s about it.
I don’t know why I’m so stuck. Hopefully inspiration strikes soon.
Why haven’t I been posting lately? I have no clue.
Every day I look at the dashboard of my blog, but the past few days–hell, nearly a week–I haven’t had anything meaningful to say.
Right now I’m tired…so very, very tired…but I figured I’d break the silence and write a little something.
The holidays are coming up, and while I’m not Christian I love Christmas. It’s not the getting, though; it’s the giving. I think I mentioned that already. Maybe. I don’t know. It’s 5:30 in the morning and I have to leave for work soon.
I’ve enjoyed wrapping the presents we’ve gotten for people so far. There’s something about putting a crapton of tape on a box that’s just so satisfying.
Well, that’s about it. Nothing much to say. Just couldn’t stand the silence.
I hate mental illness sometimes.
It just fucks everything up. I’m fine one minute, then sad the next. For no fucking reason. And it sucks.
There’s nothing that happened today to make me down, but since I’ve gotten home from work it’s started.
I feel hopeless. I feel like it’s never going to end–never mind that I don’t know what “it” is or why I want “it” to end. Don’t start freaking out though; I know that “it” isn’t life. I want life to keep going on. I don’t want that to end. Just…something.
It’s the usual depression symptoms. Loss of interest in the things I like to do. Withdrawal into myself. General malaise. It’s actually quite boring. I’m bored with depression. Go figure.
I’m just over it. Sick and tired of it. I need to kick my own ass into gear. Bust my chops. Smack myself upside the head and tell myself to quit whining and do something.
If only I could find the energy to do all that.
It’s here. Once again, it’s Black Friday.
Of course, Black Friday is starting to lose some of its meaning, given that it starts on Thursday for many stores in the U.S. It’s not just Friday anymore.
I feel for the salespeople who are stuck working today. I’ve been there. I have vague memories of it (thank the Gods for the ability to suppress stressful memories).
That being said, I must quote the Doctor today: “I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry.”
That’s right. I’m going out into the fray today. We don’t need much, but there are a few things we need to pick up today: sales that can’t be beat, sales that will give us Christmas presents for our friends and family.
I know, I know. I’m a hypocrite. I hate Black Friday with a passion, yet I’m going shopping today. I’m a terrible person.
But damn if my father-in-law & my mom aren’t going to get some great presents this year.
I’ve posted my art on here before, but I’ve never posted my gift certificates! That’s right, I do sell gift certificates for my artwork! They can be used for a commission or for a completed piece, and they can be in pretty much any denomination 🙂
I’ll try to produce more art and post it here as the time to Christmas gets closer, so keep an eye out for something you or a friend/family member might like!
Well, I’m fucked. My car’s transmission just randomly started going out today on the way to my parents’ house. We got there–eventually–but now we have to wait until Monday to even find out how much an estimate of the repairs is going to be. The only place that’s open for us to ask is the local dealership, and they’re always more expensive. The other mechanics, however, will probably charge us just to diagnose the car. Oh, and there’s the matter of getting the car to wherever we end up getting it fixed–if it can be fixed.
Looks like I might not get a new laptop for Christmas after all. The car has to come first. What money we’ve managed to save for the laptop might have to go to repairs…or a down payment for a new used car.
Damn life’s responsibilities.
Slowly but surely, I’m ticking off things on my to-do list. Are my scrubs done? Not yet, but I put them on the back burner since I have more pressing things that I need to do. Album and single reviews done, two of my drawings for the RPG project done, and I even squeezed in some (much-needed) exercise both days this weekend.
I still have interview questions to write up (yes, I took on yet another project), two more critiques, and of course the scrubs. I totally have a feeling I’m forgetting something, because it seems I had a much longer list of things to finish. Right now, though, I’m taking a break. It’s almost dinner time.
Things are still going full-speed here. Sewing, drawing, and (should be) critiquing.
Got my commission finished. Next drawing in the works is for the RPG project. That one’s going to take up a lot of time, but it’s a good challenge for me.
Started on my scrubs last night, but only have the darts and the shoulders sewn. Not going to be a quickie project in the slightest. Lots of ironing to do, lots of figuring out the pattern.
The critiques shouldn’t be taking me this long, but I just have so much else to do. I need to step up. Friday snuck up on me this week.
It’s going to be a long work day today, but that’s the norm. The off-work work is what’s going to eat up my time.
So, long story quite short, this blog may go quiet for a little while. I just have to get things done.
I’ve taken on a lot of projects lately–some business projects, some for me.
On my to do list: make new scrub tops (the fabric is already cut), make Star Wars fingerless gloves for myself from the remaining fabric (also already cut), do two album reviews for talknerdywithus.com, do a commission drawing for a friend, several critiques for the writing/critiquing group I’m in, and a new art project for an RPG development company.
Whew! How do I get myself into these kind of messes? Lol Not that I mind. It’s all fun stuff, just a lot to do.
Oh yeah, and I have work. That, too.
Got to figure out my time management and see which ones need to take priority and which ones can wait a teeny bit. I have the afternoon off tomorrow and all weekend; some of these things can be done while I’m doing laundry at my parents’ house, but not all. The scrub tops can wait, though I hate to do that (because I totally want Star Wars scrub tops ASAP lol).
Off to the day job now!
I love our cat. I really do.
But damn, he just doesn’t get this whole humans-aren’t-nocturnal thing.
As I write this, it’s 3 a.m. in our time zone. Rory woke me up at about 1:30 a.m. to clean his litter–which is all well and good, because a litter that sits there dirty all night gets kinda rank–but I guess he decided he needed to be fed as well. So, after about 30-45 minutes of him throat-kneading me and giving me kitty-breath kisses, I finally reneged and got up to give him his wet food for breakfast. Unfortunately, I’m now too awake to get back to sleep.
It is really freaking boring at 3 a.m. when you don’t have much to do.
I could be doing music reviews for Talk Nerdy With Us, but I’m not quite focused enough for that right now. I could also be writing, but I’m still stuck on the same chapter–hell, the same paragraph–of my new WIP. I could go out to the other room and watch TV or a DVD, but we have company and I don’t want to wake them up.
Finally, I have a mosquito bite that is driving me crazy.
All I really want to do is online shopping, but that’s not fiscally possible now. There’s a website where I can turn the cover for my poetry anthology, Kamikaze Butterflies, into a fabric. It’s expensive, but it would look so freakin’ cool. Would make for great scrubs or hand warmers. Alas, it’s $17.50 per yard, so unless I come into some magical money in the near future, that’s just going to have to wait.
Maybe I could sell the hand warmers on Etsy…take pre-orders….
Or maybe I could try to go to sleep. Each is equally likely to happen.
